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im officially on my own.

i absolutely had to take photos of niki with her sexy coat. shes polish and its amazing. i love it. haha. end of story. rite now im seriously a bike-a-holic. all i want to do is ride ride ride. im having a great time with my life rite now.

i feel very content, but at the same time i feel empty. i think my emptyness comes from lack of love and a lack of answers. i want to fix this, but i cant get any answers. i need to find my way, my calling, and what i truely beleive in. how long will this take?

relevance to my life; thats all i care about. am i happy? or do i feel happy? the only happiness, the only fullfillment, the only total living i will experience is rite here rite now. im not going to heaven, im not going to hell. i replace god with truth. im going to die and then who the fuck knows. ill become a dam black hole for all i know. im in the proccess of contructing my life philosophy. im going to examine and correct my thoughts. i’m going to sift out any unpure thoughts in my mind and learn about shit. im going to read books and im going to gain knowledge and then i will practice my principles. equalibrium in the mind, knowledgable conscience, the love to learn, a total mind revolution.

my current aim is to find out what my reality is. we each have our own idea of reality. through discussion and reading i hope to assertain the knowledge i need to find my place and figure out why im here and what i should really be doing.